第12部分(第2/9 頁)

　she　might　lapse　into　ignorance　of　him；　lapse

away　from　him；　farther；　farther；　farther；　till　she　was　lost　to

him。　He　had　sense　enough；　premonition　enough　in　himself；　to　be

aware　of　this　and　to　measure　himself　accordingly。　For　he　did　not

want　to　lose　her：　he　did　not　want　her　to　lapse　away。

Cold；　he　called　her；　selfish；　only　caring　about　herself；　a

foreigner　with　a　bad　nature；　caring　really　about　nothing；　having

no　proper　feelings　at　the　bottom　of　her；　and　no　proper　niceness。

He　raged；　and　piled　up　accusations　that　had　some　measure　of

truth　in　them　all。　But　a　certain　grace　in　him　forbade　him　from

going　too　far。　He　knew；　and　he　quivered　with　rage　and　hatred；

that　she　was　all　these　vile　things；　that　she　was　everything　vile

and　detestable。　But　he　had　grace　at　the　bottom　of　him；　which

told　him　that；　above　all　things；　he　did　not　want　to　lose　her；　he

was　not　going　to　lose　her。

So　he　kept　some　consideration　for　her；　he　preserved　some

relationship。　He　went　out　more　often；　to　the　〃Red　Lion〃　again；

to　escape　the　madness　of　sitting　next　to　her　when　she　did　not

belong　to　him；　when　she　was　as　absent　as　any　woman　in

indifference　could　be。　He　could　not　stay　at　home。　So　he　went　to

the　〃Red　Lion〃。　And　sometimes　he　got　drunk。　But　he　preserved　his

measure；　some　things　between　them　he　never　forfeited。

A　tormented　look　came　into　his　eyes；　as　if　so